erin

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 06:34:49 GMT

so, things are a lot better. after some heart to hearts with my mommy on the phone, bawling my eyes out walking to central, crying a lot at other various times, bitching to greg on the phone, and venting to just about any one who would listen, i feel way less upset. the emotional aspect is pretty consistant right now, so i guess i should write about another aspect of college.

i absofuckingloutely love my classes. one of my favorite parts about being here is actually the time i spend in the classroom. am i gigantic nerd, or what? my art history class is really easy because i know everything. it's a basic class on how to analyze art. i got a 4 on the AP art history test, i know what he's going to say in lecture even before he says it. this doesn't make the class less enjoyable. infact, i feel rather smart. it's cool. polisci is really great too. my professor is a middle eastern canadian man with a ridiculous accent and silly personality. the class about comparative politics, so i'm learning a lot about regimes, states, political socialization, liberal/illiberal democracies, etc. it's so interesting. i can't wait til we get into depth of the 5 countries we're comparing. golden age of greece makes me so effing happy. my professor is HYSTERICAL. he's in his late 50s, over weight, and sings in a barber shop quartet. he plays music before every class. he swears often in his lectures. today he told us to drink instead of smoke because it takes longer to kill us -- that's quality. the content of the class is completely fascinating. i love 5th century greece. i'm really considering going to greece in january because there is a trip! it's quite possible. this class coincides greatly with my world of greek drama class. in this class we read plays. we just finished the aeschylus trilogy about agamemnon. so fucking GOOD. all we have to do is write a paper about how we felt about each of the plays. wicked nice. lastly, is my philosophy class, intro to logic. THIS PROFESSOR IS THE MOST GAUCHE/DRY MAN EVAR. but he is totally one of my favorites. he's hysterical and often makes this one kid in the front of the room chuckle ridiculously and then the whole room, all 150 kids, laugh at that one kid's laugh. the class itself is about the mathematics of an argument. it's called "symbolic logic." it's not very complex so far, but it's very interesting. i like it a whole lot.

so , yeah, i love my classes and the campus. i miss home. and some of the people are kinda lame.

I WENT SHOPPING TODAY AND IT WAS SO REFRESHING.
i love shopping. and i love the holyoke mall.

i hung out with katy staley today. it was nice.

p.s. - i'll fuck you til the harvest

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 02:06:26 GMT

i'm crazy emotional right now. it might be because i'm a "basketcase," or it could be because i have PMS. and i ALWAYS get really friggin depressed/upset when i have PMS. i am so aggravated because i thought that college would be a great time to start over and be happy for once. after 4 years of constant sucking i just wanted to have a good time and be happy. but no, i'm going freaking crazy right now and almost started crying while they were photocopying my face. i hate being sad so i try to change it into another emotion. so i was laughing cause we were playing with mike's photocopier, but then i just started crying. i'm friggin miserable, it's pathetic. i'm dealing with the same fucking shit as i did before. a hostile voicemail from my mom with her blaming me for things i didn't even do. het being totally irrational about money, like usual. fighting with the same damn person i've fought with for god knows how long. seriously.
this sucks.
dieeee.

but i do this to myself. i get myself in awkward and unpleasant situations. i always have. you think by now i would have learned, but no. i guess i just love being unhappy.

p.s. - greg, thanks so much for listening to me. i'm so sorry for all the stuff that's going on right now. xo.

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 20:18:23 GMT

so. this is pretty much my "college journal." i know, it's pretty lame, but i really wanted to start a new one. margo, the best roommate in the world, often calls me "aireena," especially when she's slightly intoxicated, so there's the story behind the username.

so, here goes the first post.

things i miss about home
- the church bells
- the sounds of friday night races
- mom and dad
- my bathtub
- my own bed
- my pretty painted walls
- my little cousin
- being able to sit in my room alone
- route 140
- a fridge full of food and home cooked dinner
- my kitty
- the fairs (even though i've been going to most of them)
- band and playing the trumpet in general
- mrs. dillon and mr. comiskey
- almost being late to school every day with john
- CROSS COUNTRY
- everyone calling me "erinwebb"
- choir
- AP art history with mark/the australian guy/sister wendy/sitting in the music parking lot drawing with rocks
- CRAZY FOR YOU!!

things i like about college
- lots of new people
- always something to do
- cheap and skanky. tons of beer.
- frats
- awesome classes
- sarcastic professors (that are allowed to swear)
- staying up real late and getting dominoes
- making new friends
- stealing things from the dining hall
- french fries at every meal
- soft serve ice cream
- amazing amounts of freedom
- new friends

i love it here, but i'm also quite homesick. it's weird.